What I Learned in Your Goodbye by Jay Jeong un Yang

 

I created a song using Suno titled 'What I Learned in Your Goodbye', and the lyrics were inspired by the movie 'My Best Friend's Wedding'. 

The artwork featured in the videos was created by me using ChatGPT. 

 

 

  Lyrics:

Verse 1
I waited for the certainty
Like it owed me a sign
I called it patience, called it prudence
Called the fear “being fine”
I folded every feeling small
So it wouldn’t make a sound
I called it friendship till the night
I felt the floor fall down

Pre-Chorus
I kept my heart in perfect order
Till the truth broke through the seams
I thought I had forever
Turns out forever waits for me

Chorus
It’s too late—but still real
That doesn’t make it kind
I learned my name in your goodbye
I found my nerve behind the line
You chose someone else before
I chose myself to try
Some truths arrive with the worst timing
Too late—but still real tonight

Verse 2
We laughed like nothing had an edge
Like time was on our side
I hid behind the easy jokes
You read me better than I tried
I told myself I wasn’t jealous
I told myself I was mature
But love doesn’t ask permission
It just makes itself endure

Pre-Chorus
I waited for the moment
And the moment walked away
I practiced saying nothing
Till nothing was what I could say

Chorus
It’s too late—but still real
I won’t pretend it’s not
I called it friendship until
I couldn’t call it anything but lost
You chose someone else before
I chose myself to try
Some truths arrive with the worst timing
Too late—but still real tonight

Bridge
I won’t break the vows you’re building
I won’t steal a borrowed light
I’ll let the door keep closing
Even if it knows my name tonight
This isn’t me asking you to turn
This is me learning how to stay
With the truth I found too late
And the love that came this way

Final Chorus
It’s too late—but still real
And real is still the truth
I won’t make it your burden
I’ll carry it through
You chose someone else before
I chose myself to try
Some truths arrive with the worst timing
Too late—but still real
And that’s mine

Outro
I missed my cue.
But I heard the song.

You Play the Sky Sideways by Jay Jeong un Yang

 

I created a song using Suno titled 'You Play the Sky Sideways', and the lyrics were inspired by the manga 'Nodame Cantabile' by Tomoko Ninomiya.

The artwork featured in the videos was created by me using ChatGPT. 

 

 

 

 

 Lyrics:

Verse 1
You count to four like it’s a suggestion
Laugh in the gaps where rules should be
I practiced silence, polished perfection
You trip into notes and land on me
You miss the beat and suddenly
The room remembers how to breathe
Every wrong turn you take in time
Feels like it was waiting just for me

Pre-Chorus
I learned to play it safe and straight
You bend the line and call it fate
I chase control, you chase the sound
And somehow pull the ceiling down

Chorus
You hear the world wrong, and that’s why it’s beautiful
You play mistakes like constellations in the dark
You hear the parts I was trained to ignore
And turn the noise into art
Your chaos teaches me how to feel again
Every stumble rewrites my heart
You hear the world wrong, and suddenly
Everything sounds like a start

Verse 2
I tune my fear to perfect pitch
You hum your way through doubt and mess
I read the score, you read the moment
Trip, then land in tenderness
You find a joke inside a scale
A smile hiding in a chord
I chased applause and clean results
You chase the joy I can’t ignore

Pre-Chorus
I held my breath to keep it right
You spill the day in notes and light
I learned the rules, you learned the room
And make the walls remember bloom

Chorus
You hear the world wrong, and that’s why it’s beautiful
You miss a beat and paint the sky brand new
You hear the parts I was trained to ignore
And teach my hands what they can do
Your chaos teaches me how to feel again
Every stumble rings true
You hear the world wrong, and suddenly
I’m learning how to hear it too

Bridge
Maybe genius isn’t discipline
Maybe it’s daring to be kind
To play the truth you feel inside
And trust the time will catch the line
If love’s a song we never planned
Then let it rush and let it bend
I’ll follow where your laughter lands
And call that perfect in the end

Final Chorus
You hear the world wrong, and that’s why it’s beautiful
You turn the cracks into a view
You hear the parts I was trained to ignore
And make me brave enough to choose
Your chaos teaches me how to feel again
Every note arrives untrue—
Then turns into something honest
When the world is heard by you

Outro
Keep missing the beat.
I’ll learn to listen.

Tomorrow by Jay Jeong un Yang

 

I created a song using Suno titled 'Tomorrow', and the lyrics were inspired by the manga '7 seeds' by Tamura Yumi.

The artwork featured in the videos was created by me using ChatGPT. 

 

This is version 1.

 

 

 This is version 2.

 

 

 

 

 Lyrics:

Verse 1
They said my name like it was morning
Like the dark was already done
Lights above me, voices shaking
Saying, “You’re alive, you won”
But my hands were full of yesterday
Still warm, still unfinished there
They saved my body, not my fear
Not the life I left back there

Pre-Chorus
I tried to sit up in the silence
Tried to learn the air again
But the world kept moving forward
And I was never asked when

Chorus
I wasn’t ready for tomorrow
I wasn’t ready to survive
I opened my eyes in a century
That never asked me if I’d arrive
They called it hope, they called it mercy
But my heart was still behind
I woke up breathing a foreign future
I wasn’t ready for this time

Verse 2
The sky is wrong, the colors sharper
The names don’t fit inside my mouth
Everyone I loved is history
Everyone I was, left south
They tell me, “Be grateful, you made it”
Like that word is clean and kind
But living feels like trespassing
In a world that’s not mine

Pre-Chorus
I walk through ruins that are breathing
I learn new rules to stay alive
But every night I dream in places
That this future can’t revive

Chorus
I wasn’t ready for tomorrow
I wasn’t ready to stay
They gave me time but took the meaning
And called that trade okay
They saved my body, not my fear
Not the person I used to be
I woke up breathing a foreign future
With a past that won’t release

Bridge
If survival is a victory
Why does it feel like loss?
If I was meant to see this world
Why did it cost what it cost?
Maybe living isn’t bravery
Maybe it’s just what remains
When you’re carried past the ending
Of everything you named

Final Chorus
I wasn’t ready for tomorrow
But tomorrow came anyway
So I hold the shaking pieces
Of a life that couldn’t stay
I don’t know who I’m becoming
I don’t know who I was meant to be
But I’m still here, still breathing
Even if I wasn’t ready

Outro
They say the future needs me.
But tonight…
I just need to mourn
The life that didn’t wake up with me.

 

The Love Between Seasons by Jay Jeong un Yang

 

I created a song using Suno titled 'The Love Between Seasons', and the lyrics were inspired by the movie 'Love Actually'. 

The artwork featured in the videos was created by me using ChatGPT. 

 

 

 

 Lyrics:

Verse 1
We were almost brave, almost said the truth
Almost took the long way home just to stay with you
Conversations living in the air we never touched
Every time your hand was near, I was shaking too much

We played it cool like we had all the time
Like the clock wasn’t screaming between every line
Wrong season, right hearts, wrong place, right stare
Every word we swallowed just stayed hanging there

I read the pauses in the way you’d breathe
You read my silence better than you’d read me
Everybody else thought nothing was going on
But we felt the tension every time the song came on

Pre-Chorus
If timing was kinder
If fear was smaller
If we were bolder
Would we be closer?

Chorus 
’Cause almost is a word that still aches
Still living in the choices we didn’t take
We were standing at the door of “us”
But we never crossed the frame
Almost touched, almost stayed
Almost said the words we saved
Wrong moment, right hearts still there
And that’s the part that hurts the same

Verse 2
We kept our distance like it meant control
But every unsent text took another toll
You’d laugh a little longer than you had to
I’d act like everything was casual

Met too early for forever, that’s the truth
Too much growing left to do
Too many fears dressed up as pride
Too many feelings we learned to hide

You chose safety, I chose silence
Both of us calling it compliance
But every “how are you?” these days
Feels like a memory trying to stay

Pre-Chorus
If timing was kinder
If we were honest
If love was louder
Than all our caution

Chorus
’Cause almost is a word that still aches
Still shows up in the roads I take
We were standing at the door of “us”
But we never crossed the frame
Almost real, almost right
Almost something I’d call mine
Wrong moment, right hearts still there
And that’s the part that won’t decline

Bridge 
Maybe we weren’t meant to break
Maybe we were meant to shape
The kind of love we’ll choose someday
By being the one that got away

’Cause some connections never die
They just live quieter inside
Not a regret, but not okay
Just… almost, in a permanent way

Final Chorus
Yeah, almost is a word that still aches
Still shows up in the plans I make
We were standing at the door of “us”
But we never crossed the frame
Almost brave, almost true
Almost me and almost you
Wrong moment, right hearts still there
And I still feel you when it rains

Outro
We were never nothing.
We were never everything.
We were…
almost.

 

Between Brave and Afraid by Jay Jeong un Yang

 

I created a song using Suno titled 'Between Brave and Afraid', and the lyrics were inspired by the Shakespearean play Hamlet.

The artwork featured in the videos was created by me using ChatGPT. 

 

This is version 1.

 

 

This is version 2.

 

 

 

 Lyrics:

Verse 1
Got a crown made of questions, heavy on my skull
Every thought like a verdict, every choice like a pull
Run simulations in my head like a courtroom trial
See the ending of the movie before I move an inch or smile

They say live in the moment, say go when it’s hot
But my mind gotta cross-examine every thought
Step in the doorway, foot still in place
’Cause I already saw the tragedy written on my face

Truth got angles, every one of ’em sharp
Every option got a ghost sitting deep in the dark
They call it wisdom, say I’m deep like the sea
Feels more like a cage that I welded to me

Don’t trust tone, don’t trust touch, don’t trust love
Even joy feel like something I gotta push above
Delay on delay, every feeling postponed
Even when I’m with someone, I’m still alone

Pre-Chorus
If I move, I might ruin the frame
If I wait, I’m erased in the same
Keep asking the sky for a sign
But the sky never answers my name

Hook / Chorus
I don’t know if I’m brave or I’m scared
Got my heart in a war with the thoughts in my head
Every move feel like checkmate’s near
So I hesitate, hesitate, standing right here

I see too much, hear too much, feel too deep
Truth cut loud when the world stay asleep
Don’t know if I’m lost or awake
So I hesitate, hesitate, hesitate

Verse 2
They want passion, they want sparks, they want flame
But they don’t hear the debate every time I say my name
Got a judge in my chest, got a jury in my mind
Every answer on delay, every future undefined

Love say jump, fear say run the math
Trust say open, doubt say check the path
I read tension in silence that was never there
Build storms in my chest out of regular air

Maybe I’m a coward, maybe I’m too aware
Maybe both truths sitting heavy in the same damn chair
They glide through life like the floor concrete
I walk like the ground might vanish under my feet

Pre-Chorus
If I talk, I might crack the glass
If I hush, I just slowly pass
Got a thousand voices wearing my face
And I don’t know which one deserves the space

Hook / Chorus
I don’t know if I’m brave or I’m scared
Got my heart in a war with the thoughts in my head
Every move feel like checkmate’s near
So I hesitate, hesitate, frozen in fear

I see too much, hear too much, feel too deep
Truth scream loud when the world stay asleep
Don’t know if I’m lost or awake
So I hesitate, hesitate, hesitate

Bridge (Spoken/Rapped, slower)
Maybe choice is the curse
Maybe thought is the knife
Maybe knowing too much
Is the price of this life
If I fall, let it fall in my name
If I rise, let it rise without shame

Final Hook (Shift to empowerment)
I still don’t know if I’m brave or scared
But I’m done letting thoughts leave my life unshared
Every step still risky, yeah I know
But I move now, move now, I go

Yeah I move now, breathe now, stand in my skin
Still see too much, still feel too much — but I step in
I hesitate less, let the fear translate
Into motion, into rhythm, into my fate

Outro (quiet)
Maybe doubt never leaves me…
But at least now it walks beside me
instead of holding my throat.

The Truth They Tried to Rename by Jay Jeong un Yang

 

I created a song using Suno titled 'The Truth They Tried to Rename', and the lyrics were inspired by the movie series 'X-men'. 

The artwork featured in the videos was created by me using ChatGPT. 

 

This is version 1.

 

 

This is version 2.

 

 

 

 

 Lyrics:

Verse 1
They looked at me like I was weather
Like something wrong in the air
Like I was damage in the making
Just by existing there
They whispered “keep your head lower”
Said I should learn to behave
Taught me the shape of their comfort
Taught me the role I should play

Pre-Chorus
I memorized every warning
Every way not to be seen
But even silence couldn’t hide
The truth growing inside of me

Chorus
They called it a curse
I called it my voice
They called me a problem
I called it my choice
I stopped hiding my hands
And started calling them mine
I won’t wear the shame
They tried to design
This isn’t the name
They gave my difference
This is the name
I chose for my life

Verse 2
I learned to flinch at every mirror
Like truth was something to fear
I tried to cut myself smaller
So I’d disappear in here
But every scar became a signal
Every fault a line of flame
The more I tried to erase it
The louder it spoke my name

Pre-Chorus
Maybe I wasn’t the error
Maybe I wasn’t the wrong
Maybe the world is just frightened
By people who won’t belong

Chorus
They called it a curse
I called it my voice
They called me a monster
I called it my choice
I stopped hiding my hands
And started calling them mine
I won’t inherit the shame
They left me behind
This isn’t the name
They gave my difference
This is the truth
I carved into mine

Bridge
If I burn too bright for your comfort
That is not my crime
If I don’t fit into your picture
That’s a flaw in your design
I was never meant to be normal
I was never meant to bend
I am not your broken version
I am who I am

Final Chorus
They called it a curse
I called it my power
They tried to make me smaller
I only grew louder
I stopped hiding my hands
And started raising them high
I won’t apologize
For the way I survive
This isn’t the name
They gave my difference
This is the name
I chose for my life

Outro
You taught me fear.
I taught myself truth.

You named my difference.
I named my strength.

The Problem With Clever Men by Jay Jeong un Yang

 

I wrote a gay fantasy story.

 

Here is the summary:

 

Kael was hired to assassinate the court magician.
He failed.

Not because the target was untouchable, but because Elric was observant, infuriatingly perceptive, and entirely uninterested in behaving like a victim.

As assassination attempts turn into conversations and surveillance turns into reluctant cooperation, the two uncover a deeper conspiracy within the palace—one that benefits from clever men who believe they are in control.

Forced into partnership, Kael and Elric navigate political traps, manipulation, and the uncomfortable realization that trust is far more dangerous than any blade. Between quiet balconies, listening spells, and carefully chosen silences, something shifts: choice replaces obedience, intention replaces instinct, and closeness becomes unavoidable.

This is not a story about fate.
It is a story about two intelligent men who keep choosing each other anyway.

Here is the story:

 https://www.fictionpress.com/s/3379740/1/The-Problem-With-Clever-Men

The Kindness That Bloomed by Jay Jeong un Yang

 

I created a song using Suno titled 'The Kindness That Bloomed', and the lyrics were inspired by the manga 'Kimi ni Todoke' by Karuho Shiina.

The artwork featured in the videos was created by me using ChatGPT. 

 

This is version 1.

 

 

 This is version 2.

 

 

 

 Lyrics:

Verse 1
I learned to keep my distance
Like a habit I couldn’t break
Every hallway felt like winter
Every smile felt like mistake
They only saw the silence
Only saw the things I’m not
But you looked right through the shadows
Like they weren’t there at all

Pre-Chorus
You didn’t ask me to be louder
Didn’t ask me to pretend
You just stayed a little longer
Like you weren’t afraid of me

Chorus
You spoke to me like I wasn’t frightening
Like my voice deserved to stay
Your kindness reached me first
Before your name ever came my way
You never tried to change me
Never made me feel too small
You just treated me like someone
Worth hearing after all

Verse 2
I used to doubt every kindness
Like it must be some mistake
Every compliment felt fragile
Like a glass I shouldn’t take
But you kept leaving small light
In the corners of my day
Simple words, patient silence
That slowly showed the way

Pre-Chorus
You didn’t rush my answers
Didn’t laugh when I fell quiet
You just waited with a kindness
Louder than the world’s old noise

Chorus
You spoke to me like I wasn’t frightening
Like my hands were safe to see
Your kindness reached me first
Before I knew what love could be
You never made it sudden
Never made it feel like fate
Just a hundred little moments
That taught my heart to stay

Bridge
Maybe love is not a lightning
Not a moment meant to burn
Maybe it’s the way you listened
Every time I tried to learn
How to trust the sound of laughter
How to let my face be seen
How to believe that I could matter
In the quiet in-between

Final Chorus
You spoke to me like I wasn’t frightening
Like I never had to hide
Your kindness reached me first
Before I ever dared to try
To call this feeling something
More than gratitude or grace
But now I know what love is
It’s the way you say my name

Outro
It wasn’t fireworks or falling.
It was softer than the rain.

It was just the way
your kindness
stayed.

 

 

Live on Air by Jay Jeong un Yang

 

I created a song using Suno titled 'Live on Air', and the lyrics were inspired by the movie 'Money Monster'. 

The artwork featured in the videos was created by me using ChatGPT. 

 

This is version 1.

 

 

 This is version 2.

 

 

 

 Lyrics:

Verse 1
The lights are hotter than the truth
They make my shadow look like guilt
Every joke I ever practiced
Feels like paper I’ve just spilt
They count me down with gentle fingers
Like this moment isn’t mine
A stranger’s hand on every sentence
Pulling tight around each line

Pre-Chorus
The room is shrinking inch by inch
The clock is louder than my voice
I used to think I had control here
Like silence was a choice

Chorus
The red light’s on, I can’t breathe now
No edit, no escape from sight
Every lie I ever rehearsed
Dissolves beneath the studio light
Millions watching me come apart
Frame by frame, in real time
No retakes when the truth goes live
No way to mute the panic in my mind

Verse 2
They smile like they don’t see the tremor
In the way I hold my hand
They nod along to every answer
Like this was something we had planned
But every word I try to soften
Breaks apart before it lands
Because the truth is not a headline
It’s a current I can’t stand

Pre-Chorus
I built a mask for every question
Memorized the safest tone
But none of that survives the moment
When you realize you’re alone

Chorus
The red light’s on, I can’t breathe now
Every second feels too wide
All the things I thought were hidden
Are suddenly amplified
Millions watching me come apart
Like I’m a story they can own
No retakes when the truth goes live
And I’ve never felt so overgrown

Bridge
If I freeze, will they call it weakness?
If I speak, will they call it crime?
If I break, will they turn it viral
For the rest of my life online?
I can feel the silence judging
Feel the world lean toward my face
This isn’t news, this is a sentence
This is exposure without grace

Final Chorus
The red light’s on, I can’t breathe now
Every word is set in stone
Every thought I hesitate on
Echoes louder than my tone
Millions watching me come apart
Not a rumor, not a myth
No retakes when the truth goes live
This moment is the end of it

Outro
They’ll cut to black when it’s all over.
They’ll go to break.
They’ll change the show.

But I will still be standing here
In the moment
everyone
will always
know.